I had microvascular decompression surgery to alleviate trigeminal neuralgia, and now I’m in recovery again.CLICK FOR TRANSCRIPT
Welcome to the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast, “grief and trauma”
My brain chemistry, the amygdala, stress, fight-or-flight part of my brain is throttling my hippocampus, which is the intelligent part of my brain. The fear and anxiety part of my brain is getting the upper hand because of all of these traumas that are happening right now. I’m recording this episode to try and get it out there to say it all and to hopefully move beyond some of this fear, trauma, and anxiety.
My life feels totally different now
I have a lot more energy and I am much more present. I’m able to think complicated thoughts.
So they were like, “Something is weird. We got to put the EKG on him.” But I’m like a hairy individual, you know? So they got out the trimmers, they’re like, “What?” They’re just like, “What do we do?” … she says to me, she’s like, “Don’t worry. After we’re done, I’ll shave the rest.” I’m like, “Hell no you won’t shave the rest of my chest. Are you kidding?” I think of my chest hair a little bit like Samson, you know what I mean? Stay away from that. Come on, give me a break.
What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast Season 3, Episode 14 Excerpt: “Flapping My Arms”
One thing I did notice about the last episode is that I’m flapping my arms again. I first figured out of it about flapping my arms in episode five:
“and this is kind of joking, I guess. I get nervous, you know. You know, if you ever see me like making fart noise or flapping my arms, you know, somebody very close to me has died.”
What it means, basically that. When I’m flapping my arms again, you know I’m scared. I make jokes, it’s because I’m scared.Read transcript