My name is John, I’m 38, husband, father to 2, I have multiple sclerosis, and I created the What’s The Matter With Me? podcast to share what I’m going through.

I believe in using the transformative power of creativity to achieve social justice. Joseph Beuys once famously claimed that, “Every man is an artist.” In the words of the Spanish poet Antonio Machado, “Wanderer, your footprints are/ the path, and nothing else;/ wanderer, there is no path,/ the path is made by walking.” My work consists of interactions in the public sphere that create new connections in the community.

I have multiple sclerosis and that affects my life and work in many ways. I am the host of What’s The Matter With Me?, a podcast where I share my experiences, challenges and triumphs as a patient with MS. The podcast develops my Disability Consciousness and bridges me with my caregivers, doctors, the disabled community, and community-at-large.

If each person is an artist, and we create the road by walking, then it is up to us to create the world we want to see.

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Welcome to the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast Episode 2.

In this episode, I struggle to control my emotions due to damage in my brain stem.

What’s The Matter With Me? is a podcast about multiple sclerosios, and many other things.

Recap – should I be on disability?  My philosophy.

I said I can’t – in violation of my philosophy, which is that I generally can do things.  I can work.  This podcast is about trying, and I’m not afraid to try and succeed and achieve.  I believe that I can achieve regardless of the difficulty.

I have a lot of brain stem disease activity, and it can make staying in control of my emotions difficult. I’ve been having difficulty with my morning routine on the weekends when my family are around. I have been meditating first thing in the morning, with some success.  It provides some perspective that helps me get through the day.

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Trying

Without further ado, it’s time to go back to the beginning: Episode 1 of the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast, “Trying”.  What’s The Matter With Me? is a podcast about Multiple Sclerosis and many other things.  Only a few people ever got this, over e-mail.  In this episode, it’s the month of Mayhem at KFJC, and I go to in for an Occupational Therapist Visit, where I share about Hot Sauce R&D and my Workforce Vision.

Droll

It’s the month of Mayhem at KFJC, and DJs do special programs all month long. Droll pre-empted my show to do a special about music in odd time signatures.

Occupational Therapist Julie

I went to Stanford to visit the occupational therapist.

We talked about my business Hoppin Hot Sauce and R&D, recipe development and production bottlenecks. I told her about my vision of a workforce with disabled, vets, and ex-cons, working together in a supportive environment.

I got on a tangent and had to flush the segment down the toilet. I start over again.

I ask Julie if I should be on disability. She explains how it could help me, and my business..  I tell her the blanket analogy – that MS is a heavy blanket. I tell her about how I believe in trying, and that is why I made this podcast: to try.