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What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast

Episode 24: Hole

Recovering from Multiple Sclerosis and moving my small hot sauce business forward

“Hole in the wall”, A fall story

I tripped over myself  in my bedroom and punched a hole in the wall.  It was klutzy and embarrassing, but at least the wall took the worst of it and I came through okay.

I’m in recovery

My Nurse Practitioner told me I was in recovery from MS and that changed my perspective.  I have been in a defensive stance, and I can begin to makje positive steps forward.

Hoppin Hot Sauce — Extra Hot

I’m spending all of my time creating a new flavor of Hoppin Hot Sauce, Extra Hot.

Positive vibes

Keep things positive and moving forward in a good direction, and everything will be all right.

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Episode 23

Thank you for tuning in to the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast.  In Episode 23 Roll With The Punches I fall asleep at the KFJC meeting, hang in the yard, experience intense Trigeminal neuralgia pain, and read an old song lyric I wrote called “Roll With The Punches.”

Fatigue

I fell asleep at the KFJC weekly station meeting and that was distressing.  I woke up and everyone was looking at me.  It shook me and later in the evening I fell off the station couch awkwardly.  I go to KFJC to relax and these kinds of things make that difficult.

Yard hang

I went in the yard with John John.  It was a sunny warm day and we took our shirts off, wrapping them around our heads.  We laughed a bit and smiled.  It was a good thing.

Trigeminal Neuralgia Pain

I have been experiencing pain from trigeminal neuralgia in my right lower jaw on the buccal side.  It feels like going to the dentist, and when they say “it’s going to pinch” before you get novocaine and then it pinches and won’t stop pinching all night long.  It’s very hard, and I hope it stops soon.

Poetry reading: “Roll With The Punches”

I read a song I wrote called Roll With The Punches.  Check it out:

Roll With The Punches

You gotta roll
With the punches sometimes
Sometimes,
You gotta roll

You gotta know
Who’s on your side
Just as much as
Who’s passing you by

Don’t have no glass jaw
O Hell Naw
When you get knocked down
You gotta stand up tall

You gotta bend but don’t break
Give em all they can take
And a whole lot more
Until you hear em hit the floor

You gotta roll
With the punches sometimes
Sometimes,
Sometimes.

 

-John Hoppin, 2013

 

John

Welcome to What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast Episode 22, “Gallons, Untied Shoes, Commes des garcons/Rei Kawakubo, Surplus Store Shopping”

In this episode: New hot sauce size — Disaster: Shoes came untied — Changes in disability is like wearing Rei Kawakubo/Commes des garcons clothes — A good time shopping at the surplus store

New hot sauce size

Hoppin Hot Sauce now comes in gallons, for my foodservice clients.  It’s so they can re-use bottles.

Disaster: Shoes came untied

My shoes came untied durinf my radio show and my cohost untied them.  He was older than me, and it was thought provoking.

Changes in disability is like wearing Rei Kawakubo/Commes des garcons clothes

It’s ungainly and strange; people look at you funny.  No one, including myself, knows quite what to do.  I read some commentary about the avant-garde fashion designer Rei Kawakubo and I found commonality with my experience as a disabled person.

A good time shopping at the surplus store

I went shopping with my family at the surplus store.  We got a lot of things that we needed, it wasn’t too difficult.  My family helped me a lot.

Tracksuit folded up at the black and brown thrift store

Welcome to What’s The Matter With Me? Episode 21, “Complicated feelings about Federal Disability, Falling, Nasty Tracksuit”

In this episode: Qualifying for Federal Disability Pt. II — Two Falls, One Painful, and The Other With Wine — Going Shopping and buying a tracksuit with filthy pictures on it that my wife asked me not to wear around her or our children

What's The Matter with Me? Podcast Episode 20 Cover

Welcome to What’s The Matter With Me? Episode 20, “Disabled dad struggling to build my business and my life”

In this episode: I Fell — Sweating — Boathouse Hike — Secretary of State — Hot Sauce Business — Disability

Hand rails are useful for people with MS and other disabilities. I took this photo outside my dentist’s office in Santa Clara, California.
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Welcome to What’s The Matter With Me? Episode 19

Wild Fires

Wildfires are burning close to my family’s home in Santa Rosa.  The hill behind the house is Annadel State Park, currently on fire, and the fire department is bivouacked in the otherwise-evacuated neighborhood.

Accessible music

I’ve been making music to meditate and feel and comfort my body, accessible music using the computer and MIDI.  I am getting used to making “muzak” on the computer, and pushing my own boundaries.

Houseguest

I have a houseguest, a person that I don’t know very well.  It’s fun.

Leg pain

My leg has been bothering me.

Herb spiral

Welcome to the What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast, Episode 18

In this episode:
Fight/Cook Cycle — Spare rib recipe — Artist Statement
An artist statement is hard to write — it requires you to believe in your own importance.

Bench at the San José Municipal Rose Garden

Welcome to What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast,Episode 17

Nurse Practitioners — BBQ — Sunday date blowup — Cognitive wall — Foot Wound — Radio — I’m proud to be disabled

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Welcome to What’s The Matter With Me? Podcast Episode 16

Lamp destruction – Cognitive Exercises – Best American Sportswriting 2015 – Electromagnetic sock sales – The importance of this podcast

yard

Welcome to What’s the Matter With Me? Podcast Episode 15

I start the episode off with the handicap space for the third episode in  row.  My garden gives me room to breathe from the grasp of disability — but I supplement with physical therapy and mindfulness practice.
I’m teaching my son to watch birds and he made a correct identification.

Handicap space Part 3 — Falls — Tomatoes — Gardening — Socks — Disability — Bird ID