What's The Matter With Me? Podcast

I have multiple sclerosis, trigeminal neuralgia and I made this podcast to share what I’m going through.


Getting through anxiety one day at a time, one step at a time, putting myself out there. Slogging through.

In the news

Article: Paris Promised The Olympics Would Be Accessible

The city, which put inclusivity at the center of its bid, has improved access for people with disabilities, but with the opening ceremony about 12 weeks away, obstacles remain.

Slogging through


Processing what’s happening

One of the hardest things about Multiple sclerosis is wrapping your head around it. being cool with the things that are happening to you in the processes that you are part of accepting them is very difficult. maybe it doesn’t have to be. in Buddhism they say that all life is suffering, but some of it is unnecessary.

Maybe it’s important to accept myself and what’s happening, that it is okay that you are okay it has been okay it is okay and it will continue to be okay.

I am thinking about that because I am going to start talk therapy again

I’m getting some relief from anxiety. taking it easy

Last night I made rice and beans and we had it with eggs and salad

Bailey, a female wrestler on smackdown from San Jose CA

It rained on free comic book day

anxious feelings are difficult to control

back pain creating a nerve tingle in my groin and knee

difficulty sleeping

I play an impartial judge in mayhem special. Jersey girl and max levels

I drove to the coffee shop and didn’t give up until I got a cappuccino – twice

drove to Oakland and pumped my own gas


snap crackle pop

Max level picked me up at my house and drove me to kfjc where we broadcast the snap crackle pop special with Jersey Girl. shout outs to max level Jersey Girl circumference, Robert Emmett and the sandman

everybody played a role

radio helped anxiety – in the moment

New Therapist

New talk therapist began. we spoke about the bad anxiety i was feeling, the anxious thoughts and the need to tell the doctor that the medication was not relieving me. my therapist has worked with disabled people before, and some of them could not communicate, so they had a hard time advocating for themselves.

insomnia. anxiety. panic when I liey down. the numbness inside my head becomes my focus, and I obsess over it. eventually I calm myself enough to lie down, then the cycle begins anew

I drove my family to a baby shower in Dublin for one of my wife’s coworkers


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